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Scratch out all the rest.
This is it.
This is life.
I’ve lived four more times in the past two months.
I’ve had some heaven
And a lot more hell.
They will never know.
They won’t ever have to.
This is it.
This is life.
It’s a bitch,
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Worship services are starting to freak me out. I mean in a good way at least. It's so frikken weird how the lessons ALWAYS pertain to what I'm going through. ALWAYS!! And I'm not talking about lessons pertaining to something that happen to me last year... I'm talking about like frikken.... same exact week! The lesson today was exactly what I needed to hear because I'm going through that right now ( pay attention and you'll know ), and the whole suicide lesson last week... but let's not talk about that. But yea, it's been almost two months where I relate to the worhsip services. Let me just say that the last thing anybody should do is lose faith. Take it from ME... this year is starting to be worse than last year (if that's possible), but I truly feel that God is guiding me. Don't ever take it out on Him and don't ever blame Him for He is only testing you. Like in a previous lessson, just like how gold needs to be tested if it's real, God needs to test our faith to see if it's real. Sorry if I got all gay on you... but yea.
My plans for the summer have changed... my plans for my LIFE have changed too. I have no direction right now or no idea what I'm gonna do with myself in the very near future, but it all starts with a PLAN.... and that's what I have right now.... and it's all MINE. None of it will be easy, but if I work hard enough and earn everything on my own, and keep in mind what my priorities are, I'll be fine. I'll explain my plans next time because I'm dead tired. For all you lazy people out there who stay at home and do nothing and STILL live, eat, sleep, and shit for free.... at least appreciate it. If not, DO SOMETHING. Not everyone has it easy... im out | | | |
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The other day I saw Star Wars and I thought it was really good, acting could've been better, but still a great movie.... and still a big fan.
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Cast off your old name! Your Jedi name is
NAVJA POQUE of the planet Amoxicillin!
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Heh, stole this from Solo.... hehe thanx. I got bored and saw this on Solo's site and I thought 'What da hell, why not?!'... my jedi name came out pretty funny and I had to post it..... im out | | | |
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If you ever have the time, read all your past Xanga blogs, that's if you had xanga for a long time like me (almost 4 years). But yea, the other day, it took me about 3-4 hours reading all my old blogs, and all I gotta say is WOW! This very Xanga site, xanga.com/lord_egg, is GOLDEN!!! I never really knew how much I've grown until I read this thing, and how dumb I really am! Some of my old blogs were so confusing that I couldn't even understand my self. It's like I was talking to myself in the past. Ah, I can't explain it, this thing is just PRICELESS! For example, I was reading a blog I posted up exactly a year ago, and I can't even believe it's me. If I didn't know me, I'd think that I was crazy, seriously, because of the countless times my perspective on life, or on everything else, has changed. It's funny cuz I'm probably the only one sad enough to have a site this long. If I ever die, count this as my autobiography, HAH. I think I've gained a new fondness for this site. For all you oldskoolerz on this site, trust me and just try it..... im out | | | |
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Peace, perfect peace
I want to know what that really is
Can it ever be attained?
I heard once that it can, more than once really.
Rest, complete rest
From all the running and all the persecutions
Will I ever stop running?
My feet are getting mighty tired
It all seems so close yet so far
Isn't there a shortcut somewhere?
Death seems very enticing at a time like this.
The road is starting to get too muddy,
The bushes are starting to grow thorns,
The oxygen in the air is starting to thin,
The sun is starting to burn a little more,
That shortcut seems OH SO inviting.
The path is so dark, yet so clear and quick
Suicide was never an option, until today.
Eternal rest, Eternal peace
"Take the easy way out now, burn later", I was told.
Maybe this race IS worth finishing
I guess I'll just keep on running. | | | |
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